Dealing with weight gain..?
I haven't weighed myself in years because I'm not allowed to own a scale. It's frustrating but I learned to live with it. Today, I went shopping for the first time in months and decided to try on some pairs of short shorts because why not? I grabbed my usual size and one under just to see and went to the fitting room with that and a few other pieces of clothing. The shorts didn't fit. Neither the smaller one, nor my usual size. I had to grab a pair one size bigger and I just can't deal with it. I started crying in my mother's arms as soon as we got home and even though she told me I've never been this beautiful and healthy before and that she's very proud of having such a beautiful child (I'm neither female nor male, just saying), I just can't get over it. I feel disgusting and I don't know what to do.
Hello! I hope that you are feeling well! You must always remember that health and happiness does not depend on the size of the shorts that you wear. You are beautiful! I hope you are felling well
Everyone tells me health and happiness and my worth and whatnot aren't related to my size but concretely that doesn't help me, I've been dealing with an ED for 10+ years and this is a big deal for me... I haven't posted the sizes to avoid upsetting/triggering anyone but this is something big for me and I feel destroyed...
Im trying to lose weight as i am ugly and fat
I only eat [edited for triggers by forum mentor] I've struggled with my weight issues for awhile. So every time I think I'm fat, I limit my intake of foods. My diet is NOT healthy at all. I DO NOT recommend anyone following my current meal plan. [edited for triggers by forum mentor]
*** I'm just sharing ***
PLEASE. I don't want to be triggered, I'm trying to deal with my weight gain. I'm trying to accept it and let it go, not make myself worse!
"not make myself feel worse"
Those are key words. Ourinput can't make you do anything. If you are the one making decisions on how you should feel, then you should focus on that. I found the thread interesting so I shared my input.
What we write should not persuade you to eat less or more or focus on your weight. It's just to give your young self insight that everyone goes through weight issues. We are meant to be imperfect and not be bottled into one size fits all. Cheer up. If the photo is you, then you look pretty cute and healthy. Be blessed with that.
Remember you wear the clothes. They should make you feel comfortable. I went shopping and in some stores I'm one size smaller, while in other stores I'm one size bigger. If I feel good and look good to ME, then I'm buying it. So one size up or one size down should not make you feel discouraged. Bodies are meant to change.
Reading about people losing weight and how they do it makes me want to do it too. That's an eating disorder. I don't want to be the fat one in the thread trying to gain weight. If everyone is losing weight, I'll work harder to lose more weight.
But that's the most important question. If you don't go on the scale, on what basis do you feel like you are fat or not.
Your mom thinks your fine.
I'm pretty sure you thought so too until the short shorts fiasco.
An eating disorder of any kind is a mental challenge. For that their is no easy trick or answer. If it's that bad for you to deal with, seek professional help/therapy.
[edited for triggers by forum mentor]
I repeat: I'm looking for tricks to help me deal with the weight gain, not tricks to lose more or people sharing their weight.
There are no tricks. Scientifically weight is factored in with height and BMI. That stuff can be Googled.
If you've taken a nutrition class or health class, you should already know the basic answers or "tricks" to maintaining a good weight.
(eat right, exercise)
"Mama said, "You're a pretty girl.
What's in your head, it doesn't matter
Brush your hair, fix your teeth.
What you wear is all that matters."
Just another stage..Pretty hurts, we shine the light on whatever's worst
We try to fix something but you can't fix what you can't see
It's the soul that needs the surgery"
I'm not going to tell you what to do, I'm not going to suggest anything that will make you uncomfortable. All I'm going to say is this. Whatever reason you feel the need to change something then do it, but only for yourself. Don't feel pressured into anything, or anyone.
Alright, maybe my post will be deleted or whatever but apparently I did not make myself very clear in my first post. My usual size was [edited for triggers by forum mentor], the only one that fits was a [edited]. I've been starving myself since I was 13, now I'm 24. I'm not a girl, just saying it again. Last time I was able to sneak a peek at a scale, I was [edited] pounds. But I feel fat and disgusting and I know it's all in my head but I can't help it, I want to get thinner. I'm trying my best to not relapse completely but every time I try to talk about my issue, it only makes it worse. Every time I read/see/hear someone's diet or weight, I want to do better than them. I always want to be the thinnest, not to be attractive, quite the contrary. I want people to stop telling me I'm beautiful. I never want to hear the word "sexy" to describe me. I want people to be confused when they look at me, I don't want anyone to flirt with me or compliment me because of my body.
I don't even know why I thought asking for encouragement on my road to recovery on here would be a good idea, so far I've gotten nothing good out of here...
"I want to do better than them. I always want to be the thinnest, not to be attractive, quite the contrary. I want people to stop telling me I'm beautiful. I never want to hear the word "sexy" to describe me. I want people to be confused when they look at me, I don't want anyone to flirt with me or compliment me because of my body."
So if it's NOT for the obvious reasons (pretty, sexy, what have you)..then what is the point? To win? If you feel like you are in constant competition, then what are you aiming to win? Nobody wakes up one morning and says they're going to lose a ton of weight without a sole purpose.
We were not on your journey since the beginning so for you to assume that we can provide you the answers you want is naive.
This is not about the wrong size shorts anymore. This is deeper, and with that, continue to do what you were doing privately (because that seemed to be a better benefit to you then sharing on here - as you mentioned). Keep surrounding yourself with positive vibes. Keep getting the treatment you need. Best of luck.