I hate bulimia.

I've had am eating disorder going on about 3 years now. Bulimia developed almost 2 years ago.. I used to be worse. I used to also be an alcoholic and I would constantly binge and purge everyday and every night with whatever money I had just to release emotions. I dont know why or when this started but i desperately need it to stop. Now i go all day without anything and I'll usually just purge at night once if I do it at all.. I'm getting some self control. But i dont knowing I'm strong enough to get more control back..