I think it's getting worse?

I never was diagnosed to be a binge eater it's something I never heard of until I tried to figure out what was wrong with me. Everytime I was stressed or upset I would start eating being completely numb as if the food would bring me comfort. I tried to branch our try new things because I was a picky eater growing up. I told my boyfriend how I wanted to loose weight. Whenever I order food now he says "you're on a diet you can't eat" that or "isn't that too much food". Trigger warning- I have started skipping meals because I felt sick with my body. I tried to get motivated to be more active like I was when I played tennis. {Back story I played competition tennis for school for four years and my coach was always on to me about my weight. this was when I was skinned and I overworked myself to get to her expectations so I quit. Now I gained weight and binge eat whenever I'm sad or just want to feel something} I started a calorie count app and it was going well till I had issues with my relationship. The binge eating started I didn't even try to count calories because I already knew I failed for that day over and over. I treat myself sometimes to something smalls sometimes on a date but now he says I shouldn't and he eats it infront of me. My boyfriend told me I couldn't eat the food I wanted and I had to try something new. I honestly have no idea what to do at this point because my efforts weren't enough. I am pretty sure I gained all the weight back just that week that I was struggling.