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I've been struggling with anorexia nervosa for eight years now. This is my sixth inpatient in this year. I have to gaiain a little weight in order to be let home. If I don't do that I'll be sent to a hospital where I'll be treated really badly (which I know from experience). The problem is I cannot deal with the weight gain. My birthday is soon and I want to spend it at home. What should I do?
@PersonInTheWorld
I hope you are doing well. it is a struggle many of us may not have insight into. Only you know what motivates you to not accept help and treatment but just gain to be let go to go back to self destruction.
This is a situation where it is life and death fight. A form of self harm you have many i am sure lecturing you and telling you how you should do this or that but IMO that only makes us want to stick to our plan our reason for doing what we are.
Hello @PersonInTheWorld
I am very sorry to hear about your struggle. I cannot imagine having AN for such a long time . Which is most likely a reason you cannot recover very easily. You see , those thought patterns and habits you have been having for such a long time have almost , in a sense , warped your brain. It is EXTREMELY hard to change that. But if you need someone to speak to , I am always here. I am a recovered anorexic , not as severe , but I might be able to understand.
And trust me , the weight gain is something I always hated , and yet , it's the most wonderful thing that could ever have happened to me