ED Check-In August 3rd, 2019
I'm really new here and idk how this site really works yet so I hope I'm posting this in the right placE. I've always had a problem with anorexia and CONSTANTLY feel uncomfortable and disgusted with my body. I used to be in a really dark spot and I just wouldn't eat and I'd go to gymnastics and work out and i lost a lot of weight that way, but when my mom started to catch on I got scared and started to get better. I'm definitely falling back into things and I've started restricting and working out again. I'm worried and I don't have anyone to talk to because I really don't trust anyone. I want someone to notice and start to worry so id feel a little less alone in this but I also dont because a huge part of me still doesn't wanna get caught.
Had to redownload this app because Im struggling again. Big shoutout to my brain for doing a cute little throwback Thursday and bringing back the ED thoughts and urges to starve and purge. Im scared Im going to give in, its been nearly 3 years since I was properly ill, but Im struggling, and thats how Ive been.