Autism? Feeling scared. I couldn't pass an online captcha that asked me to match "identical" objects because none were literally identical.
I have struggled all my life. I am now at midlife and realized that what I thought was just due to having zero parenting and basically raising myself, and that someday if I tried hard enough, I could catch up to my peers... at a certain age, after reading 100's of books to figure life out, I finally reached out for help. I signed up for DVR services and was sent through a neuropsych test last week. Everything I have ever struggled with in my life became apparent during that test. I always thought I was smart. But I couldn't navigate those tests. I had to keep asking for clarification on the questions. Everything I have Googled says autism. I don't get the test results back until later this week.But I have struggled with social cues, etc. and I read that the SIMS games, can help with learning that. So I tried to sign up for the online SIMS game tonight and I couldn't pass the captcha because it asked me to match identical images. Well, none of the images were identical. Some were similar, like one outlined shape would be in black and a similar one would be in white. But those are not "identical". Took me over ten minutes to pass the captcha to create an account because I had to figure out what their version of "identical" meant. I was practically in tears by the end. I just simply wanted to play a fun game and also try to learn proper social cues and I couldn't even seem to figure out the hoops to get through or how to, in order to complete that simple task. The story of my life. Makes me feel so inept like I should just forget trying to get a job etc. and declare myself an idiot and try to sign up for assisted living. Sorry, too much of a pity party there. But honestly. I thought I was smart. But simple things like this make me feel stupid.
@bestLunch109
Hello!
Listen, captchas can be hard! I completely hear you!<3
I commend you for putting in the effort to do some research and try to use sims as a way to get better at social cues.
Sims is one of my favorite games, I really recommend it. I would take some time to practice some self-kindness and self-compassion and ease yourself with the game :)
Be kind to yourself! You're doing your best! 💛💫
I learned I've got asperger ( autism spectrum ) about 2/3 monts ago. Always though that everyone felt the way I feel and i was the only one who couldn't handle it. I would have anger outbrusts cuz of my sensory overload and lots of different things.So when i heard my diagnosis i felt a bit relieved but also scared. I'm high functioning Wich means i learned some social rules and obeyed them even thou i didn't understand them. Someone says something you don't understand ? Smile and nod( also look then in the eye even though it feels uncomfy and kinda wierd). People laught at something you said thinking it's a joke even tho it really wasn't? Play along. I just though everyone did this, you know? Just social rules. Wich made me think that everyone was pretty fake, but that a different story.My dad would randomly sternly sad my name and when asked "what" he'd say " you know what"- I never did.I know it's not the same as yours. But i just want to know you are not alone it this. If you understand your copying mechanizms and feelings you can control them easier and feel lighter and more confident, so i recommend research.( Also recommend therapy, it helps you to understand yourself and others, and how to easier function in society) I know you posted this a month ago so i hope you got a bit better. If you ever want to talk and/or exchange experiences I'm up for it :)). Wish you luck
