Feel disgusted with my self
lavenderAvocado2406
August 13th, 2023
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I have chronic OCD, depression and what I did today was abominable.i matched with a girl on dating app. Had some pleasant banter..after posting my number,I went to look at her pictures and noticed a very large deformity of the hand.i quickly then went and unmatched her so she doesn't see my number.i feel like a low life. I know well the extreme pain of rejection and my immature response to her condition exposed my false vision of my self as some virtuously good moral person .I can only pray God has mercy on my soul and forgive me for what I did .I now realize the previous relationship pain I suffered was simply past karma catching up to me,how I just unmatched and dropped her from the app.