Need Support that will be there truly

Hello all,

I am 32 years old and have been suffering with major depression, ADHD, anxiety and borderline dissociative disorder. I had had a rough past that was filled with bulling and emotional abuse. I have pretty much never felt good enought my whole life as I allways found it hard to fit in and be popular with peers. As I thought things would get better after high school they did and did not. I would fall in love with a guy who was interested in me... give them my all only to have my drepression run the off in the end b/c they did not like the negativity that surrounded me and they did not know how to cope and empathize .... so the left... The last relatiomship I had was with a man and his drug of choice opiods that landed me to loose an amazing job I have worked so hard to acheive. In the end I had to distance myself from him as he was my enabeler and only used me for sex and money... I would love to find love one day and have a relationship that I would be confident that would last. However, one I am trying to work on now... I can allready see my depression builkd up the wall between us and I am back to that darkness I know all to well.... I dont really have much of a support group b/c I am in the South and alot of people from this small town area do not know much about mental illness or how to handle it... So on night like tonight when I am scared and alone.. I would be nice to have some one to have my back. Thank you for taking the time to read my quick bio and I am looking forward to hearing from you all and having a great support group that will be there for each other when we need it most.

Thanks a lot yall