Introducing myself
Hello, everyone.
I'm new to 7Cups, and this is the first time I'm actually making a post. You can call me Rick, and sorry if my nickname seems offensive, it wasn't meant to. I'm 20 years old, and I'm coming to share my story and to ask for guidance. It all started when I broke up with my ex, two years ago. Unfortunately, I haven't been through it. Marijuana became my best friend, and I started to dive deep into spiritual practice. I started to detach from the others, appreciating the world on my loneliness, even ignoring movies and music, since everything I wanted was to meditate and contemplate flowers. One day, I had a joint, and all of a sudden, my perception changed. I thought I had special habilities, and I started to percieve things at an exaggerated extense. I started to fear my friends, faces started to hallucinate, and I was hearing voices all the time. Four months after, things are stable, and I'm aiming for a cure, I made a contact today! I have no peers to count on, only my family (which is quite sad by the way), and I came here to find support and comfort in a moment when I have no friends at all. Before leaving, I want to suggest something I'm also gonna try to: journal from your beginnings. Write down from your childhood, do your "biography". Try to understand your life connections, the "casualities", everything. I'm putting an effort on it, since it's almost writing myself down from head to toes. Thank you very much, and lots of love for everyone who's struggling. 
@SaneSerif
Welcome, Rick. I didn't find SaneSerif to be an offense; it sounded like a play on Sans Serif. You articulate quite well, and being in a state where you want to be with nature and meditation is actually a goal of min. Yet, I can understand the discomfort from being detached from everything else. I'm prescribed medical marijuna, and I'm considering taking it tonight.
What advice were you looking for? You seem to have a great deal of clarity already. You want to develop habits that will bring happiness and color back into your life. You're journaling. You just have a few more little steps to do. Write down the future you want to happen, write down steps you can take to bring that future closer to the present, and work on those steps for a preset amount of time each day and watch the future you want come closer. I think this is a viable strategy for many people, but it does require having clarify of thoughts and some protection from the attacks of negative people.
@Darkseed
Hello, thank you very much for your reply! Actually, I'm also supportative of using marijuana as a viable cure, and I'm looking forward to find a good dose around (unfortunately, no legal here, I got a bit around but it's not the best strain for sleeping).
I think I can handle pretty well the discomfort, the challenging part is overcoming the trauma. I'm allowing myself to be a child, to watch series, to just chill and think about nothing. I'm following your advices, and I'll write them down. Last, but not least, my househould is quite negative, despite being loved and cared, and I'm trying to make things change in order to be as comfortable as possible. Probably gonna do a kambo ritual, which is with poison from a frog. It sounds very thrilling and interesting,
Happy Christmas!
