well here goes nothing
Hey. My name is Naomi and i'm 13 and well yeah this week so far hasn't exactly been well. It's breaking me down actually. Breaking me down so hard that yeah i tried some things but now i'm in a head space to where i'm just very lost, confused, tired, hungry all time but can't ever actually eat, and hurt yk? And well i haven't been able to sing without the tune turning sad and into tears. I haven't been able to dance without telling myself that i'm not as pretty or as fit as the other girls. I'm always scared to leave the house because this girl who makes my life a living *** might fight me or even worse. I'm scared to talk to my foster dad because he just screams at me or tears me down while my foster mom coddles me and is always making an effort to be there for me but just it doesn't feel right. And so they are always fighting about me and i feel like i'm breaking up their family. Anyways yeah i'm hurting and i figured that songs and poems are the same thing kinda. So if i can't sing fully without it getting too depressing i can share a poem i wrote. Now i'm not good at writing poems but hey let's give it a shot.
It's hard to look in the mirror and see what I see
A girl that's broken and lost
A girl who's soul is just longing to be free
A girl who can barely see the light
As she gets ready to fake a smile all day her heart breaks a little more
She is scared to show the person that's hurting
She is scared to let them look through that door.
And as she walks home deep into her sorrow
She hears her insides telling her to just stop being sad
But she can't instead she just continues walking playing with her hair
She want to ask the universe " Why must I suffer? it's just not fair!"
But instead she trudges to her room and prays that she'll feel better tomorrow
But as the weeks progress she start to see
That she may never be free and she accepts that
It's sad I know but that's just how I feel
The End.
Thank you for your time