Living for the sake of others
I feel like I’m only staying on this earth for others. I’ve dealt with mental and physical illness my whole life and at this point I’m just tired and done.. I don’t enjoy life anymore but friends and family keep pushing me to continue living. I love and appreciate them always being there for me but they don’t truly understand how painful it is to be me. The only thing keeping me going is the fact that me being gone will devastate them. I’m not living for myself anymore and everyday I’m getting worse and worse.. I just don’t want to feel this way anymore.. it’s gone on for too long.
Hi, I really don't know how you feel, so I can't really relate to you. But there was a time in my life when it felt like nothing mattered. And I wanted to end it. I was 17 at that time. But when I think back, what I really wanted then was for someone to tell me that they wanted me, and that I wasn't a failure. That person turned out to be my mom. There are a lot of things in life like painting, traveling, trying all sorts of food, meeting new people. U never know what you might be good at unless you try, and it's ok if u suck at everything. I think the purpose of living is to explore and experience. And to have a person who needs you( In your case there seems to be a lot of people who do) And as for your reason for living, well try something new every day, until you find something you really like and just have fun.
I haven’t enjoyed the things that used to make me happy for a while now due to not having the energy.. heck I barely have the energy to do basic things anymore. Right now it’s eat, go to work, sleep repeat and that’s about it. Maybe one day I will enjoy things again like I used to but right now I’m just way too tired. The only thing I look forward to is sleeping because at least I don’t think or feel when I’m asleep so I’ll sleep 10+ hours just to escape reality for a bit. Thank you for your kind words tho.. I hope one day I’ll actually live again.
I say that same thing all the time. I have no life and am only here for my family. I know that if my parents were not here anymore I would not be here either. I don’t know how to make myslef happy. I feel like no matter what, at the end of the day, I always hate myself and where I am in life and sick of the pain. It’s not worth it to be sad and hurt all the time. I hate it and don’t understand why we have to feel this way. Why can’t I be happy and enjoy my time. Even if I’m out doing something with my family, I find myself coming home a mind crying myself to sleep. Why, why does it have to be like this. What is the purpose
i am new to this app and just reading things but it’s good to hear that I am not alone. That people share the same pain and feelings as I do. And I’d love to learn more and be helpful in anyway I can.