Depression and anxiety
I've been dealing with depression and anxiety for a few years now, I've tried therapy, medication, ignoring it, dealing with it and anything I can to try make me feel even the littlest bit happier. I have suicidal thoughts which won't go away. It's hard to focus my mind or even think positive. They say the thoughts are bad enough but I know how it's going to end. I feel like I've subconsciously planned it and now I dream about it. Feels inevitable. Feel like I got no choice, no one to talk to with out bad judgement and I just don't know what to do with myself anymore. I can't trust myself. What can I do?
I have been diagnosed with depression also, the suicidal thoughts haven't ever gone away despite me not feeling depressed. It took a long time and a lot of trial and error to find the right antidepressant that works long-term
It's absolutely important to have someone to talk to without judgment. Do you feel like you're getting the help and support you're needing from your therapist or therapists you've worked with in the past?
I dont feel like I can talk to anyone about anything and therapy didn't work then they had to let me go because they didn't have the staff. I've tried talking to different people but I cant find someone to actually listen and someone to try understand
I'm sorry you've had a difficult time finding people to talk to that will listen and try to understand. Some people just aren't as skilled at listening as others and finding someone that is can be hit or miss. I'm willing to listen though and try to understand if you want to talk here in your post
I've had that happen to me before, my services being ended. It was because the business where my therapist worked went bankrupt.