When will this end?

I don’t have many friends either partially because I am an Aspie (High Functioning Autistic/Aspergers Syndrome=Aspie), I am a truck driver, and I am an introvert. For whatever reason me being an introvert doesn’t prevent me from getting on this site to talk to people whereas in the real world (Face to Face) I usually don’t converse or socialize much. As an Aspie I have never fit in either, when I was younger or even now I still don’t in most places, but as a person that doesn’t fit in it is good to see that because now you can begin to find where you can fit. It’s like finding that one square spot within all the round places. (Square Peg in a Round Hole Analogy) look hard enough and you will know where you fit as long as you are honest with yourself. You say in order for people to like you, you need to fit in or be successful. Well you have to find where you fit as mentioned above, I have struggled with this all my life and I am 32 years old now. And as far as success I have had my fair share of struggle with that too, I am just now getting to where I would call my life a partial success. I have been through over 100 + Jobs in my life, Been through countless failed relationships, Been married 3 times, divorced 2 times, Been Homeless 5 times (Twice by my own family’s hands) and I didn’t finish high school or go to college so needless to say I have struggled with fitting in and being successful. As an Aspie, I have come to the fact and acceptance that no matter how hard I try, I will always be different than a lot of people. I have talents that they don’t and can’t have, I like to call them my super powers. Like with Aspergers I have the focus to be obsessive with interests, Laser focus on any task that I am interested in doing for long periods, Be brutally honest at times but honest in general all the times, not to say I haven’t lied before trying to protect my own skin but it is very rare because it is just the way I was wired, and I am good at relating to people when I feel like being social because of my huge heart. Some say that people with Aspergers lack empathy but that is a myth, not to say that some lack empathy because some do because all Aspies are different in their own way, but to stereotype us and fit us all into a box that says “Lacks Empathy” is a mistake of epic fashion. If it were true, I wouldn’t be able to see your problems in myself and be able to relate to you as I have done. But just know this, I have been where you are, It is not a fun place to be, but there is light at the end of the tunnel. I don’t know what kind of music you listen to but, I love Country music over here in the United States. Cody Jinks wrote a song called “Ain’t A Train”. I believe that song will speak to your heart as it did mine if you are willing to give it a listen or at least look up and read the lyrics to the song. Also know that you are not a loser, I have felt that way as well, I have even had my family call me a “Worthless Failure” which cut extremely deep. I still struggle with even talking to and visiting my biological family today. My wife and her family are my biggest supports. I posted a post about 15 minutes ago that described my current predicament. We all have problems, We all have Traumas, We all have a past, We all have a future, We just have to figure out how to move forward and keep momentum. I heard someone on a audiobook once say that “We all have a story to write, What kind of story do you want to write, Do you want it to be positive and good or doom and gloom.” So that is a question that I have to ask myself on a daily basis that helps me to make certain decisions that shape the story I am writing and helps me make better decisions for me that have better outcomes than just going with anything that feels good at the time. Just keep your chin up and feel free to message me anytime friend. Talk soon, Your Friend.