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Not ok but acting ok

SpadeSystem August 12th
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I've been running from my demons, afraid to look behind
I've been running from myself, afraid of what I'd find
But how am I supposed to love you when I don't love who I am?
And how could I give you all of me when I'm only half a man?
'Cause I'm a sinking ship that's burning, so let go of my hand
Oh how can I give you all of me when I'm only half a man?
And no one can ever hurt me like I hurt myself
'Cause I'm made out of stone
And I'm beyond help, don't give your heart to me
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SpadeSystem OP August 12th
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Telling myself I won't go there

Oh, but I know that I won't care

Tryna wash away all the blood I've spilt

This lust is a burden that we both share

Two sinners can't atone from a lone prayer

Souls tied, intertwined by our pride and guilt

There's darkness in the distance

From the way that I've been livin'

But I know I can't resist it

Oh, I love it and I hate it at the same time

You and I drink the poison from the same vine

Oh, I love it and I hate it at the same time

Hidin' all of our sins from the daylight

From the daylight, runnin' from the daylight

From the daylight, runnin' from the daylight

Oh, I love it and I hate it at the same time

SpadeSystem OP August 12th
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The two songs above are Half a man by Dean Lewis and Daylight by David Kushner

SpadeSystem OP August 12th
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Runaway by Aurora

And I was runnin' far away

Would I run off the world someday?

Nobody knows, nobody knows

And I was dancing in the rain

I felt alive and I can't complain

But no, take me home

Take me home where I belong

I can't take it anymore

SpadeSystem OP 2 days ago
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Overwhelmed by Ryan Mack

I get overwhelmed so easily
My anxiety
Creeps inside of me
Makes it hard to breathe
What's come over me?
Feels like I'm somebody else
I get overwhelmed
In my mind
Late at night
Overthinking everything in my life
Just wondering if I'm doing anything right
All these demons inside 
Start to really come a live, oh my
I get anxious and I don't know why
I can hear my dreams calling me
But all these doubts are haunting me 
Oh, why's it always right before I fall asleep that
I get overwhelmed so easily
My anxiety
Creeps inside of me
Makes it hard to breathe
What's come over me?
Feels like I'm somebody else
I get over
Well, well, well
Would you look at that
Another person telling me that I should just relax
"Calm down and take it easy everything will be okay"
Yeah sure, 'cause that's what they all say
But, oh, my mind
Isn't really my friend sometimes
I can hear my dreams calling me
But all these doubts are haunting me 
Oh, why's it always right before I fall asleep that
I get overwhelmed so easily
My anxiety
Creeps inside of me
Makes it hard to breathe
What's come over me?
Feels like I'm somebody else
I get overwhelmed so easily
My anxiety
Creeps inside of me
Makes it hard to breathe
What's come over me?
Feels like I'm somebody else
I get overwhelmed so easily
My anxiety
Creeps inside of me
Makes it hard to breathe
What's come over me?
Feels like I'm somebody else
I get overwhelmed


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