Like a movie scene every day
You know that trope where the main character is out walking in the street at night and passes by all these homes with big windows showing people having a good time together? And the main character has made mistakes to end up at that point. That's me and my mistakes were the way my brain formed and the misguided actions as I tried to figure it out without guidance. I'm paying the price every day and it's only getting worse as my workplace just really shoves it in my face. Even subtly teasing me. I can't even begin to improve my mental state until I can quit and if I'm proper about it, I have to wait like 6 months. I don't think I can though. I'm in anguish every work day and even on my days off I'm still unwell over my long life of social failures.
