Just feel so alone
It feels funny typing this in a public forum... Like screaming in a field,, hoping for someone to answer...
Long story short, my life took a turn for the worse when a person I loved manipulated me into nearly cutting off my circle of support and then left me. Fast forward many therapy sessions later, I find myself in the same spot as always. Alone. Even in a crowd, at work, among like minded people, I feel alone. And somehow, the attempts to connect always fall short.
That being said I do have an amazing friend. But she cannot always be there for me. And, she has a big issue with empathy. Amazing human being, just don't ask her to emphatize with you.
So here I am. Alone. Again. It feels like the more I try to change things, the more they stay the same. I just wish there was someone. That's all I ask at the moment.
@edg0414
I've noticed something surprising. When I call an old friend that I haven't talked to in a long while. I always think "it's been too long, they have a busy and happy life, they won't want to hear from me" but the opposite happens most of the time. We re-connect, and then pretty soon they are telling me "How did you know, it was just the right time to call me, I didn't know it but I needed to hear from you, you always call at just the right time even if it's been years".... Your old circle of support, what if you just called them and say you miss them and asked if there is anything you can do to help them... what if 1 or 2 of them is really missing what ONLY YOU brought to their life?
I'm praying for you for real... try praying right now really... I really think God connects us to people when we pray and ask Him (something brought me to you at this moment, maybe the unspoken prayer of your heart?)
@RedWell
Never had old friends happy to hear from me, unless there was something they wanted from me... It is a nice sentiment though, I thank you for it.
@edg0414 sits beside you and wraps you in a warm blanket and hugs you tightly ❤ I'm sorry that happened to you 🙁 I know how hard it is to make new connections, I pray you find comfort here at cups ❤ we are all here for you ❤ hugs you tightly ❤❤I hope your ok
@edg0414
I am totally in the same situation, I was a very talkative person but I don't know but now I can't stand discussion with someone whenever I go; I feel alone but I hope you will find peace here.
