I just need someone to listen

I’m really tired of my mom ignoring my mental health. I’ve tried opening up to her thinking she was a safe space and I was clearly wrong. All she does is dismiss me and invalidate every feeling I have. Maybe my reasons for being depressed are valid to you but that doesn’t mean they aren’t valid. Like do you think I want to be depressed? Oh yes it’s so enjoyable bed rotting wasting my life and not having motivation to even take care of my self. Yes I do it just for fun because I have nothing better to do . Like wth. It’s really annoying but the second spending upsets her the world must stop and I must aid her side . What kind is delusional is that. It is getting to the point where it’s making me angry because it’s actually ridiculous. Like I self enflict every thing that’s happened to me. It’s the most insensitive thing I’ve heard of. I just wish I had someone to help me and be there for me if my mom won’t even help me who will