Welcome to Rock Bottom!

When is it that you hit rock bottom??....

Well here's my version.

1). difficulty in processing your existence on this planet.

2). How does my existence affect anybody?

3). What have I turned into?

4). The people I love don't want me.

5). Am I a total failure?

6). Why is this happening to me?

7). Why can't I get anything done?

8). Is there a God?

9). Is God punishing me?

10). What did I do? where do I go? who would understand me?

11). Maybe I'm crazy? Maybe I'm not?

12). I want to kill myself.

Now people have different and much more interesting versions than mine but generally these questions are common. I feel pathetic when these questions pop up but the actual science behind this is that your body is in shock!.... You are unable to digest the sudden change in the situation. I think there are three stages you go through before you reach bedrock.

Stage no.1- the incident has taken place, it's pretty fresh and so you play the denial game where in you try your level best to fool yourself into thinking that everything is okay.

Stage no.2- the lovely questions listed above beat you up for a couple of hours and either you do some crazy shit or you just try sleeping which would never work (especially when it comes to women).

Stage no.3- it hits you hard enough and so you reach bedrock safe and sound. The questions still continue to haunt you but with a lesser magnitude. Well congratulations!! Now you have officially reached rock bottom.

So what do we do now??...

Well I think God hit my reset button by mistake and I'm getting a second chance to make better choices. I wouldn't say right choices because I believe right and wrong depends on the situation your in and being excessively optimistic won't help but being realistic will. So bedrock or rock bottom isn't a bad place ,it's a place where you get second chances and the best part is cribbing is totally allowed.