Trying to make sense of my depression ?
Two main things about me. (1) I'm a self-critical workaholic 20-year-old student, and (2) I don't socialize much due to some level of fear. Both are probably reasons why I feel depressed and all, for I guess 5 years? Gladly not constant, but comes and goes. There's this kind of imprinted subconscious within me, that I don't want to be seen. I don't want to be known, noticed, so starting at a young age I didn't interact well and join with others' interests, up to now where I avoid trends and social media. I really dk why. Result is, you know, isolation and loneliness. Then there are thoughts of harming self and all, resurfacing now. So I knew I needed help. That's why I'm here. Getting help is hard, so I'M PROUD OF U.
@Lilyhux
Hello,
Both working so much and not socializing would definitely contribute to how you feel. It is okay To hide your true identity for reasons. Perhaps, you could confide in a friend because it can help with how you're feeling and you'd know you aren't alone. Honestly, it's fine to not fit in, it's okay to be in the outcast. Sometimes not fitting in is the best thing you could do. It could help to make a new friend group; for people to care about your well-being. If you'd like we can forum chat if you're interested.
Thank you, I haven't put it that way. I hope to feel more at ease with not fitting in. I'll try to make a new friend group like u said. Thanks!
