Thoughts on Depression
As experience has taught me, life gets tough sometimes. This site is a wonder in a sense that it's so wonderful to truly know that you are not alone. Whilst no two problems are the same, the solidarity in having the knowledge that "Hey, someone else out there is having a rough time, too" is truly spectacular.
But I wanted to talk a little bit about depression. Depression is many things to many different people. It knows no boundaries and can creep up on you in the most surprising and devastating of ways. It can be there subconsciously, sat in a rocking chair at the very back of our minds just ready to pounce on whatever it feels like tearing apart. It can make you feel like the loneliest person in the world in a room full of your favourite people. Depression is the antagonist in the movies of our lives.
Depression to me feels like this - an anchor that's weighing down my heart and soul, dragging along at the bottom of the sea floor, determined to stop me completely.
It's agonizing, isn't it? It's emotional, devastating and leaves us feeling defeated. I sometimes think to myself: "What should I do with this pain?" Sometimes you just want to grab the pain and hold it so tightly that your hands lose all feeling. And you want to use that pain to jolt your forward head on and tackle these problems head on and fight the world; and make that pain suffer for ever inflicting itself upon you.
But hey, more often than not, that doesn't happen. We're not superheroes. We are human. And that's what makes us human, after all.
I suppose, if there's a point I'm trying to make, it's this: depression is awful. The pain and the suffering is tough. But like I said, we're human. And we're tough. Superheroes haven't got anything on the human spirit. Even through the darkest nights; keep on fighting the good fight. You're not alone.
@TheDeaningOfLife I love how you put this into words. And I think it's important not to underestimate how devastating a condition depression can be, as you say, and how widely it is misunderstood. You describe it extremely vividly and it's mindblowing to me to think about these symptoms that millions of people are living with every day across the world, many without knowing what causes depression or how it can be managed or treated. What I especially like about the way you describe it is that you talk about the strength it takes to deal with depression. That's a strength I admire.
Thank you for sharing this with us. What a beautifully written post that many people in the community can relate to and learn from. I appreciate your honesty with yourself and your readers. One thing I love about this post is your connection to community and finding support through your network here. I am glad you have found that Dean. You are very deserving of support.
