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The Plane - A reminder that things do work out

PolarCat December 4th, 2015

I am a Lego hobbyist - I have been all my life - I have countless sets of Lego. When I struggle emotionally, Lego is my safe place. It is both calming and distracting. And when my project is complete I get that feeling of accomplishment.

This time last year I gave birth to my second child and shortly thereafter I slipped into a very deep depression. Not only was I depressed, but I was also dealing with severe anxiety. I was unable to sleep for up to 40 hours at a time. I would simply lay in bed and my mind would spiral out of control for hours on end. I lacked motivation and spent a lot of time hiding. I was very much in a state of non-functioning.

Christmas was fast approaching so in an attempt to appear as though I was just fine I went over to the mall to pick up some things. I was in the Lego store picking up a gift and saw this plane. The Sopwith Camel fighter plane. I had seen it before and it was a set that I knew I had to have. At this time, my therapist had been encouraging me to get back into one of my hobbies. So there I stood in the store staring at the plane. Should I buy it? Would it even help? I feel so awful. Screw that. I won't enjoy it. Plus, it cost a small fortune. So I left without the plane.

Fast forward a couple months to when I started coming out of the worst of the depression. I was prescribed Anxiolytics that helped me to sleep at night, I was getting into a routine to help me get out of bed, and I had decided I was going to force myself to get back into a hobby. Lego has always been my go to hobby so I headed off to the Lego store. When I arrived, I didn't see the plane. The clerk had informed me that the plane was retired a couple months prior.

Desperate to find my plane, I looked to purchase it online, but everyone selling it wanted more than double the retail price of it. I couldn't afford that. I was very disappointed and felt defeated. I felt like I had been knocked back down. So, once again. I said screw it.

Around July, my listener had mentioned hobbies to me. So once again I looked online for the plane. It was still double the price. I was disappointed, but not as much as the last time. Then, a few weeks ago. I was chatting with a friend and the topic of Lego came up. I was reminded of that plane. So, again, I looked online. This time, I found one for just over the retail price. I was so excited that I ordered it right away. I figured I could justify the money since it was an early birthday gift to myself.

My plane arrived this week. I was like a child on their birthday! I got to work building it right away. It was a 7 hour build and the accomplishment I felt when it was complete was amazing.

It is now a year later to the week and the majority of my issues have been resolved - and I have my plane. It is now built and displayed on my desk as a symbol that things do work out if you're patient and know where to look.

I still have days where I struggle, but they are few and far between.

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Amelia December 4th, 2015

@PolarCat

I'm so proud of you for posting this! I know it wasn't easy--but you're brave. And, I'm so excited for you that you are recognizing the joys in your life and you're able to identify so many positive steps that you've taken. Just, wow! @Laura @MissZ @Roadie @GlenM @StandForFreedom

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PolarCat OP December 4th, 2015

@RocketsMom Thanks! I appreciate your support. :)

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Roadie December 4th, 2015

This is a beautiful reminder @PolarCat.

Just today I was getting frustrated and a little down on things. Your post serves as a poignant reminder to take it back to the simple pleasures in life. I feel better already! Thanks for the re-direct :)

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PolarCat OP December 4th, 2015

@Roadie Thanks. I am glad it was a good reminder. :)

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understandingJackfruit191 December 4th, 2015

@PolarCat--I'm feeling better and encouraged after your post. I won't give up! Thank you!!

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PolarCat OP December 4th, 2015

@understandingJackfruit191 I am so glad to hear this! That is awesome!

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Laura December 4th, 2015

Thank you for sharing this story! I am proud of you for being persistent to find that plane! You inspire all of us!

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PolarCat OP December 4th, 2015

@Laura Thanks, I appreciate your kind words.

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AdVictoriam December 4th, 2015

Happy early birthday and I'm sure you are going to enjoy that Lego set :)

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PolarCat OP December 5th, 2015

@AdVictoriam Thanks Ad! I very much enjoyed building my plane.

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cyanPlatypus6370 January 8th, 2016

@PolarCat ... Thanks for sharing this true, life experience. I love Legos too, but yeah, they are expensive. Good job treating yourself to something you really did want! I'm glad you had a good time building it too. Happy birthday to you! (a bit late now I'm sure but yes). - K -