Slipping into old patterns

I also suffer from depression and anxiety and I have been "well" for about 18 months but I was weaned off my anti depressants 2 months ago and since then my old habits have been very hard to resist x

hello, even though this thread is 10 years old, I sure can relate and appreciate the thoughts and feelings expressed in the thread. 

So, I had a rough childhood. From the womb to the age 7, I received programs which I’m not aware of, but that’s who made me who I am. Nevertheless, I’m trying to rewrite the childhood depression programs and it’s very challenging to change my personality. How I think, how I act, and how I feel. I’ve noticed patterns approximately every 7 years I’d pack up and move. Stress, anxiety, and depression has been a constant all my life. I remember as a child that I was not good enough for friends or valued compared to others in relationships. Why is that? I run away from family, jobs, and myself when anxiety attacks, but it’s all in my mind. My subconscious is snapshots of past memories. I can be at this moment which is inevitable. Still don’t understand my response or actions dealing with depression anxiety. I’ve had therapy sessions and of-course I have to provide the answers for the situation. Anyway, the answers are either misery or pleasant which do I choose. I guess in conclusion, is my choice

@loyalBeing54

I appreciate you opening up about your feelings. It sounds really tough dealing with depression and anxiety, especially when it feels like no one understands. Remember, it’s okay to seek support from someone who gets it, like a therapist or a caring friend. 

Finding ways to express yourself, whether through journaling or creativity, can really help too. And don’t forget to celebrate even the small victories. You’re not alone in this, i am here for you whenever you need to chat. Take care!

@loyalBeing54

Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings so openly. It’s clear that you’ve faced significant challenges, and it’s understandable to feel overwhelmed by everything that has happened. 

Let’s take a moment to explore some ways you might find relief and begin to regain a sense of stability. 

First, consider reflecting on what specific events or situations are contributing to your feelings of anxiety and depression. Keeping a journal could be helpful here. Writing down your thoughts might allow you to identify patterns and triggers, giving you more insight into what you’re experiencing.

Self-compassion is also vital during tough times. When negative thoughts arise, try to gently challenge them. Think about what you would say to a friend in a similar situation. Shifting your internal dialogue to be more nurturing can help you treat yourself with the kindness you deserve.

Setting small, achievable goals can be incredibly effective. Rather than focusing on overwhelming tasks, break them down into manageable steps. For example, if there’s a project looming over you, set a timer for just 10 or 15 minutes to start. Often, taking that initial step can lead to greater motivation.

Mindfulness and grounding techniques can be useful in reducing anxiety and overthinking. Practices like deep breathing or short meditation can help bring you back to the present moment. You might find guided exercises through apps or online resources beneficial.

While it may feel like your friends and family don’t understand, consider reaching out to communities where you can share your experiences with others who might relate. Sometimes, simply knowing that others have similar feelings can create a sense of connection and support.

Engaging in activities that once brought you joy, even if it’s difficult, can be helpful. Whether it’s listening to music, drawing, or taking a walk, finding those small moments can gradually lift your mood.

Creating a daily routine can also provide a sense of structure and normalcy. Try to incorporate regular sleep, meals, and small tasks into your day. A consistent routine can help ground you and reduce feelings of chaos.

Lastly, don’t forget to reflect on your progress, no matter how small. Keeping track of these moments can reinforce a sense of accomplishment and boost your self-esteem over time.

You’ve already shown remarkable resilience by sharing your struggles, and that’s an important step. Remember that healing is a journey, and taking small, consistent steps can lead to meaningful change. You deserve care and kindness, both from others and yourself.

@loyalBeing54

Hi there, and thank you for sharing.I am sorry to hear you are going through some tough times and it feels that all the work that you have done is being undone slowly. the thing is, for me, at least, sometimes staying afloat is already an act of courage. There are times when things get easier, and times when "life happens". This is something that is out of our control. In times like this, I try to stick to small positive routines, be there for myself because though these small acts of kindness to myself and self-care might not make it much better, abandoning them certainly makes it worse for me. You are stronger than you think. Be gentle with yourself! 

@loyalBeing54 It sounds like you have been dealing with a lot and recent events are making it more stressful. Growing up with such things must have been extremely hard for you. You are such a s strong person for holding onto this and reaching out. Sometimes taking small steps can help you. It's really brave that you are looking for ways to move forward. You'll get a hold of it. 

Hello, thank you for sharing your story. Given your traumatic childhood, talking about depression and anxiety takes guts. When you're struggling with severe emotional anguish that won't go away, family and friends telling you to "just let it go" can feel dismissive and infuriating. Excellent that you've taken charge of your mental health through counseling and noticed progress over the past 7 years. That demonstrates concern for your health. It's normal if major life events have affected your stability progress isn't always linear. Our group has many people that struggle with sadness, anxiety, and being misunderstood. You're not alone. This forum is an excellent platform to connect with those who understand, but I also recommend talking to a listener who can offer devoted support during these difficult times. Please take things day by day as you return to a better place. Your sentiments matter, and you deserve help during this tough time. If you need to communicate about your situation, our listeners are available 24/7. Hope your journey brings peaceful healing.

@loyalBeing54 Thank you for sharing so openly about what you’re going through. It sounds like you’ve been carrying a lot of hurt for a long time, and it’s completely understandable to feel overwhelmed when life keeps throwing challenges your way. It’s clear that you’re trying your best, and seeking support shows so much strength. You’re not alone in this.

How have you been coping when things feel too heavy?