Please help

Hi All,

I have been going through depression and medicines for a while now. I had a burn out at my job 1.5 years ago and decided to quit. I was at the top of my career but my health declined a lot. I used to have body pains and crying spells due to heavy work load everyday. My health is better than before but I am still not 100% healthy and there's a lot to work upon. Also, my family life was a mess, my older sister lost two daughters to sudden heart attack and went through trauma. She used to take it out on my parents and me through very harsh words. It was a very difficult time as I had very less support from my friends and had to go to office and behave normally. My parents also didn't have a happy marriage during my childhood and seeing my sister like this broke my heart. My job was the only thing that used to keep me going, although I used to cry everyday. On my last day at my job, nobody cared much and I just left the firm. I had been there for 7 long years and had worked very hard. I hate my new job as my manager works remotely and I hate the work I do. I have tried switching projects, job hunting etc but nothing is working out. I had been put on meds in between for depression and I don't see a way out. Everyday I just remind myselt tht least I have a job that helps me pay my bills. Bt doing something that I hate everyday is very difficult. I miss my old job but don't want to go back as well because of office politics. I fear my health will be affected again. ​

Any guidance?