@FoxPrince
I had that same mindset two years ago. I sat on my floor and hurt myself and thought about suicide because I thought who would care. I don't like to have many friends and when I get depressed I isolate myself even more so I had no one. I woke up, went to school, pretended that everything was alright, and I went home and shut myself in my room. I would spend the entire weekend in my room also. I would sit and think about how insignificant I was in the grand scheme of things. Thing is when my mom found out I hurt myself she was horrified and hysterical, along with the rest of my family. My friends didn't know how to react. The people I thought that I wasn't super close to anymore or people that didn't need me anymore showed me in that moment how wrong I was. Also it takes all the effort one has to live. To wake up day in and day out and keep moving forward and keep changing and growing. Killing oneself is hard for a few seconds and then it's over. At least it's over for you, not the people who you leave behind. The people you thought didn't care that then have to try to move forward in their life wondering what they could have done differently, wondering if only they had shown you more love, care, and attention, if you would still be there. Also I get looking at this world and what's ahead of you and hating it. Doing the same thing day in and day out. If you hate that idea so much, do something different. You could get a job that involves traveling and exploring the world or something along those lines. Just think of what a big world this is and all of the opportunities there are to do, well, anything. Life may suck now, I get that, trust me, but if you hold out a while longer you might just find something worthwhile to do, explore, learn about, ect. I won't tell you to ‘stay positive, I'm sure you hear that enough but maybe try to keep your eyes open to the possibilities of the world. Also remember that you're not alone in this. Myself along with i'm sure many of the people on here are either in the same head space or, have been in the same headspace, as you are in right now.