Normality in feeing nothing.

This is my first time posting, sorry if this isnt how things work! I just feel like I need to get something off my chest and Im not even for sure what *this* is, because I struggle to find the right words.

This year has had by far been my hardest and I dont want to go into details but here recently, erhhh the past few months, I have felt a whole lot of nothing. Well, for the most part, anyways. I used to feel calm when I got time to do things like relax and enjoy morning coffee (Im always excited for coffee) or I felt at peace when I went outside because lets face it, nature is beautiful. But these past few months, its like all of those content feelings have faded away and I failed to realize it. Of course I have realized it now, since it dawns on me that whenever Im feeling something, it tends to be sad. Something thats big enough to bring me to tears.

I feel silly typing this but I feel even weirder about going through my day in motions. Its just motions that im not feeling any connection to. Which is what I dont understand... I figured it was a fleeting episode of sorts that would pass through and it hasnt. It doesnt matter how big or small the situation is (or whatever Im going through), I dont feel any emotional connection.. Is that apart of depression? Is there normalicy In feeling little to nothing at all? I dont know how to manage this. I feel fake. Is this relatable .?