New year plans?

My ex left me right before new years in 2016, my 2nd ex right before new years in 2017, single ever since...
I guess new years is a very special time of the year....................................................................
My family prefers not grouping this year and i dont really have friends to visit.
What should i do at new years? i feel really lonely and deeply miss my 2nd ex, but i dont feel like socialising while im sad.....least do i feel like sharing my sadness with anyone irl.....................its so painful :(

@KaspertheGhostt My family does not want to hold any group events either this year and I feel you in the sense it can be lonely especially as you are missing your second ex. A suggestion I have for what you can do for New Years and what I will do is take yourself on a date. As weird as it sounds, it's freeing to know I do not have to rely on another to have fun or enjoy myself. What this could look like is taking yourself to the park, treating yourself to a sweet treat, cooking a meal for yourself, or just anything you would do on a normal date. You can also get dressed up, but in the end, it's nice to do all of this not for another person but just yourself. Maybe this is not your thing then I guess you could spend this day any other way. It does not have to be a special day and you do not have to make it extremely memorable. Take it easy and if you are lonely and sad, that's okay too. One day these feelings will come and go