My truth

I'm close to edge. I've been thinking of ending it for a while now

I haven't seen the point of anything for awhile now. I've been waking for months now asking myself why. I try to be positive, I try things that should help me move forward but I feel constantly reminded that everything I do is pointless and I'm really tired.

I'm constantly on the verge of breaking down everyday but I keep it because it's hard to even explain why I'm like this.

I'm Writing this right now a very calm state and that scars me. I feel like I'm at the point where I am at the point where I'm just collecting reasons to justify my actions and I'm just noting them down so I can say, you see, I tried but nothing went right so what's the point

I literally can't see future past the day I'm in

I'm going to end anytime soon but I feel like I'm ready let go of this life