My depression is destroying my friendships

I started talking to my friends less because I realised I had nothing to talk to them about. All I could do is complain about the current stresses in my life (my sister, school, etc.). I don't watch the shows they do and I don't do anything of interest to them. Every time I try talking about something I like, I feel like I'm annoying them. I feel awkward, as if I'm a nuisance who's just interfering with their fun conversations. When they talk it doesn't feel right to join in. I struggle to even open my mouth. Most of the time I don't even know what they're talking about. It could be about something I know nothing about, or I might've just zoned out and lost myself during their happy chatter. They sound happy, I feel miserable. It's not their fault, it's mine. It's me who's put distance between us. My friends used to be the only reason I found school worthwhile. Now, there's nothing to keep me going there. Being with them has become too painful. I love them. But it hurts to be with them. And they have absolutely no idea... I'm going to end up all alone.

edited by Rain45 Moved to Depression Community due to Forum re-organisation