Loneliness and Isolation got worse in this convid and relationship and anxiety not good.

I'm female who has anxiety and depression. On my own due to the virus. Things were ok till the virus came. I'm trying to go out walk and shop but can't do alot if they stopped everything. My bf isn't understanding. We fell out and I felt I was feeling blamed for feeling certain way and I'm not talking to him. I haven't spoken to him today cuz it's best for me not to engage. He don't seem to understand if I just want more from him. It's different when he's sad I come running. Not any more. I did something yesterday messaging someone on Facebook a girl I doubt thought maybe relationship was his ex hi s kids mum and found out I messaged her. Don Don't know it was her or not. I feel bad c uz he got angry. I can meet up which I do and he does but feel this virus distorying us and meet up withim. I donta wanna leave him but I don't wanna get nothing. U don't wanna either ignite but only choice I got cuz as before I go cold and will not show emotion when he's hurt me so is that best thing. I still love him he does but it's timing again what doesn't seem to be on our side. Things were ok before it's meeting up.

His parents said don't want anyone around house cuz of virus and that's fair but they don't really seem down to earth as I hoped. Getting my anxiety when it keeps coming back to that. I don't feel like they think I'm good enough for him it seems. Maybe I'm wrong. If they want there son back ok. Also my anxiety has been bad and been not resting and getting up early in day and have phobias to

Am I in the wrong am I expecting too much? Plus my friends haven't been here for me much when I've been on my own and needed someone to talk to. I've reached out to an old friend who isa guy got feelings but had to talk to someone who knows me and will listen and he's only one who does. No one else seems to help. I spoke to support lines on phone and ones ones helping me but its still hard during day as this virus whats affected us.

please can someone help. Advice

I'm lost and don't know what to do or no one does.

Sorry for long message I need help with this