Limbo
Anyone else in a state of limbo in terms of their depression? Like I feel depressed but I'm not as bad as I used to be.
My appetite is up and down, I sleep way too much, I'm always exhausted, I'm never motivated.
Like I'm depressed but it doesn't feel as dark as it did? Does that make sense?
Mh-mhm. I know this state. For me it was a good sign. I mean, it was a terrible way to live when I was in it but it heralded brighter days.
I remember thinking that everything was so "meh". I could look at practically anything and go "meh" in my head, not feeling anything. This state lasted for a long, long time, but so slowly I didn't even catch it at first the days got a little bit better and suddenly I was actually enjoying myself.
I can only hope that you're on a similar journey. I know it sucks now. It's a shitty way to live but rome wasn't built in a day and depression wasn't cured in on either. The journey is slow and laboursome.
For what it's worth I was in a very good place until 2 days ago and if this family drama that's dragging me down doesn't do too much lasting damage I feel like I might bounce back to good again so there is that to look forward to if you eventually get out of this limbo on the other side.
I'll keep my fingers crossed for you. ^^ Hang in there.