I need some support and thoughts
I have been struggling with depression since I was 8 years old. I am 26 now so that says alot. I have gotten help and used this app alot. I've been off and on medication and I'm currently on wellbutrin. This past year has been the worst year of my life. I developed a very serious chronic illness that took my life over for awhile. I also had some terrible family issues that are still going on with my husband's family. My entire wedding was ruined by both these things and it's very hard to move past it. Lastly I had to take a 3 month leave for my health. I am a hairstyles of 8 years. I have spent 4 of them at this salon building my book. While I was gone one of the stylist stole my clients even the ones who were family to me and had been coming to me for 8 years. I lost 30 clients and I'm left with 15. Tonight was the official tip of the iceberg when I was on instagram and saw a client I had just done yesterday with her son at a different salon today. I feel like such a loser like I can't do anything right. I keep looking through my hair photos and Instagram and I don't know what went wrong I am a very talented stylist with years of education and I feel like I have lost everything. I don't know what to do and how to pick up the pieces and move forward. I'm thinking about moving salons and starting over because it is so painful seeing all of my clients In another chair. I was even thinking about changing my career path. Yet I have build and dedicated my life since I was 18 to hair. I'm so confused and anxious and sad. I could use some support and kind words of encouragement.
That’s really rough. While I am inexperienced in hair and relationships I understand your feelings of unable to do anything right. I often question myself and what I’m doing, I often lie awake at night replaying previous actions over and over again. I’m unsure how to help you but here are my thoughts: Are you enjoying what you are doing? It seems to me that you are constantly stressed and worried. You’ve been doing hair for a long time, and that’s really impressive. I would say that you do have the skills, but your self confidence is holding you back. The thing is you can’t go back to the past, you have to continue moving forward. Clients will come and go and that’s alright. I don’t know if this may help but one of my favorite quotes from Edna Mode seems very fitting, “I don’t look back darling, it distracts from the now” Don’t focus on the negatives, instead focus on the positives and how you can continue to grow yourself. Some people may always be negative, it’s up to you to decide if you will listen to them. If you need some encouragement, I believe in you. You are strong, determined, and priceless. You can do whatever you set your mind to. Good luck! ♥️
