I honestly don't know where to go anymore

I'm sorry to hear that you are feeling like you're going to explode. I think some self care might be extremely helpful for you. It could help you channel that heavy emotion into something healthy so it's not so i tense. You can also reach out to a listener at any point to seek support or maybe explore self care a little deeper. I wish you the best of luck. You don't deserve to carry this burden and I hope it becomes a little lighter soon.

@Grrreywolf Agreed!!!

When the emotional distress hits it hits hard... So join hands and letts fight it together :)