I feel like I can't go on anymore
My life isn't what I expected. I planned to get my masters degree in two years and then have a baby, get my PhD and all that. I thought I found my soulmate but I don't know anymore. I'm in a bad place, where I can't enjoy anything. For my birthday a few days ago I cried even tho I went to my favorite place and I looked how I wanted to and I thought I was fine until it hit me that I'm 21 and didn't end it and then I felt useless, like I don't do anything with my life and I'm going nowhere. I'm sick of feeling tired and I feel stupid and like I suck for being ungrateful and not being able to enjoy my life. It hurts so bad it just numbness my heart even more. I'm reaching out because I need to breathe again. And write again. And be myself already!
I have been fighting depression for 8 years, feels like nothing really works anymore. (I am NOT thinking about stuff, I just feel like giving up)
@rera Having life not go as expected can be disappointing and even make us lose hope for the future. It exposes the unfortunate truth that we cannot predict the future. It sounds like you are feeling really overwhelmed right now. If you'd like to chat, my listener account is LuminousBraid91.