Hi i dont know am i sick?

Samantha

11:39 PM

Me and my mom

I love my mom. Im an adult. Well im 22. Doing degree, in engineering. I have a big bro (he works as engineer). And a dad.

I always bother on small things that my mom says towards me. Like "stop wasting ur money, i wont pay for u", "if u get into accident, is better for u to die compared to being disabled for ur whole life", "if u got into hospital because of ur own fault, i wont wait for you", well being compare to my bro is beyond all the above. I even selected for student union, excel in sports, well my education was not high but i manage to maintain above 3cgpa.

The difficulties im facing now was i often forget what was im talk, misplaced stuff, sometimes i blank out like i starjng into something, easily distracted towards moving objects, i get mad easily, i even create a character of maria( the mad me, who often said unpolite things, she comes when injustice often when im alone) other was i dont know her name, but she loves to cry whenever having a thought but she ends up with laugh forcing herself to stop. I dont know what am i. I having trouble sleeping and lost appetite. But i force myself to eat infront of my mom. Because im afraid that shw might says mean things but still even i eat she still say tho 😅

So thats my story for now