Everyday is hell

@Pinkrose713 Do you know what we do when we're hurting and tired? We take a nap, have a little time to self-care and fix ourselves up. Stay positive where you can, no matter how dark things seem, you CAN make it out the other side :)

@Pinkrose713

*offers hug*

Everyday's been hell for me as of recent months, even though I've had happy moments but deep down in my heart I'm not as cheerful. When I'm forced to leave home is the worst part, cos after at least 30 minutes or less I don't want to be out anymore and just go home. Anxiety attacks and paranoia get to be so easily sometimes. I tried going to a club a few times, but I stopped because of being ignored and I grew so paranoid I don't even want to return back to it again.

I can not show emotion to someone IRL with my own problems, then on some days I feel so terrible at home for not doing so I want to hurt myself.

Then I sleep for long periods of time, hoping I don't wake up.

I don't know the true meaning of love.

When I keep thinking complete depression and harm, I fear hospital trips cos I don't get to keep my electronics nor my plushies cos they keep me sane and get me through each day. Even some of my favorite fleece pants have strings on them, I get stuck wearing hospital pants. Gross. I want my fleece pants, can't live without them. Fleece in general I need.

I wish my drawings could end up more innocent again, but now they end up disturbing and macabre.

;w;