Does it get better?

I'm emotionally drained by people leaving me. I live in a constant state of anxiety because i've lost my best friendships. Somehow life is always out to get me. I haven't left my room in a month, i'm constantly tired and don't see any good in the near future.

I'm really hoping for a miracle at this point because i've lost my sense of self and have no reason to be happy. I just wish that this would all go away. I also wish people would realise how much they have hurt me by pretending i dont exist. I really do hope my friendships can be saved.