Depressive Emptiness

I’d say one of the worst parts about my depression is when my thoughts come back to death every time I’m really upset. It’s like the floor beneath me bottoms out and I fall into a dark room of feeling like I just don’t want to keep having to go through life. When depression seeps it’s way into my reality it’s frustrating. Whenever I realize a flaw in myself, others, or the world I immediately question why we are born in the first place and forced to go through life. My therapist suggested I start looking at forums like this to see if anyone feels the same way, so I guess that’s why I’m posting this. Does anyone else feel this? Like every time something goes wrong it adds on to the reasons why you crave not being here and you’re scared you’ll feel this way forever & not sure how much you’ll be able to take?