Depression and losing friends
My husband and I had a big fight today and during our fight he told me, "there is no 'happy times' with me" and continued to say that's why he can't continue. He also confirmed its because I have depression. With depression, I can never be happy because that what depression is, and he seems frustrated that he can't make me happy. He apologized for saying that after, but the hurt doesn't go away from me. It did lead me to thinking maybe the reason I start losing my friends (losing contacts, people stop talking overtime) is because I have depression and I'm not fun to be around anymore.
@awesomeUnicorns60 Leave him. You don't deserve him and you deserve to be without him until your healed. Depression ruins everything.
It seems like its working out. Recognizing our own mental illness and willing to help each other was big step. @sincereCake2935
@awesomeUnicorns60, hi, i agree. I find I lose myself to depression, and by losing, I mean I lose those aspects of myself that I even feel are truly fun, energetic and driven. I do acknowledge that there is no denying that stuff happens in life, and I try to wrap myself up into thinking what should be, or that somehow I could have influenced outcomes sometimes that were undeniably out of my control...it gets to me. And coming back to your thread...unfortunately to friends that haven't been in that similar situation, I feel like some get it or try to get it, others somehow can't. I am still friends with those that don't and even inspite of having found out to being judged so simplistically that it was nothing to "get upset" about...but sometimes in life, it is not so simple. The only thing that keeps me trying to pull out of being depression is not thinking about this feeling of not being understood. I listened to an extract from Gary Zukav, and he spoke about trying to be open that maybe one may be down, and it is incredibly hard being in this state, and never to downplay how hard it is, and never to oversimplify...but he said try just try to give the universe a chance so that we can give ourselves a chance to pull out, and start seeing possibilities and hope and reach out where these are. Hugs all
When the depression relapses, I feel my confidence slipping. I don't feel confident making and being with friends.
I agree. @greenSpring309
thank you @awesomeUnicorns60 for making a connection.