Depression...

nothing ever gets better my life only gets worse whenever i try to make friends everything just gets worse and worse, this world is EVIL AND ROTTEN and this shit world wants TO ELIMINATE ANYONE WITH BAD SA like me because they are PURE EVIL. i hate them all so much, its because of them that i will never be happy and bette roff dead

I believe it'll get better for you.

When I was in college, I thought I had to be perfect. Oldest kid, better be a good example for my siblings. Female computer scientist, I had to show my peers that I deserved to be in this space. Expectations from family that I was going to be the "high earner" when I was out of college, they would send me articles about powerful women and be like "that'll be you someday!"

No pressure.

When I got my first C+ ever, I had a breakdown. Locked myself in my dorm, sat under the desk and cried for hours. If I wasn't perfect I wasn't worth anything. And then some time later I started self harming. That lasted years, and the majority of my college years are a blur of anxiety and depression. Frankly, I'm surprised I graduated. I was never actively suicidal, but I couldn't at all imagine what would happen after I got out, I could imagine myself living until graduation.

I got lucky, someone saw I was struggling and helped me, is still helping me. I still have major anxiety, mostly when it comes to the idea of me not being good enough and they leave because they can't handle my issues.

But my story isn't the point, it's just to tell you that I relate. So I can tell you that it will get better. College was the worst period of my life, but it ends eventually. So many better things are on the other side, whether that's you graduating or you deciding that you don't want to finish.

Failing your classes isn't the end of the world, it means you'll have an advantage if you take them again.

Time passing too quickly; stop, take a deep breath, and maybe give yourself something else to focus on, give your brain a break. I always find reading a chapter or two of a book or fanfiction helped, have me something to focus on other than the real world for a bit (although I always had to set a timer too, so I wouldn't lose track of time).

Don't be afraid to talk to tutors or teachers if you're having trouble focusing and doing assignments. Working in the tutoring room always helped me focus better, and or a space that I designated as "work space."

Anxiety about meeting new people, I get it. I've had enough abusive friends to last me a lifetime. But without going out, you'll never meet someone who gets you, who's willing to help you and who you can talk to about your favorite things.

Nobody should have their metal health invalidated, it's awful that it happens. You're valid, what you're feeling is valid, and it's ok to be upset about it. There wouldn't be a whole app and more of people feeling the same way you do if everyone was just overreacting.

I don't know what life events you're going through, and I know school is tough. But it will get better, as long as you don't lose hope. As someone who made it out the other side, it gets better.