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Depression + Romantic Relationships

Hanaa00 June 9th, 2020

Some of my experiences have lead me to start thinking about the ways one's depression is reflected, linked to, or simply manifested in relations to their romantic partner and the relationship they are in.

i will shortly share some of my own experiences just so you would know what perspective I am coming from. When it comes to romantic relationships, I have been in situations where my partner (with depression) has been more distanced due to depression, and has lacked interest in me, as well as the relationship. While I do understand that, this post is here to share a perspective of someone who has been on the other side of the whole situation. While I do/did try my best to provide as much compassion, support, understanding and care as I can, here I will share some of my own thoughts, doubts and questions I often have to ask myself. Please keep in mind that they are above everyone honest, and come from a good, caring place.

Sometimes, I, as well as--I'm assuming-- other people who have been/ still are in a relationship with someone suffering from depression, wonder if I had anything to do with my partner's mental state getting worse. Imagine this: that person had depression, even before you/I had come into their life. And once you've become part of their life, it almost became a form of escapism, a little something to make the grey could go away, perhaps just a little of the "happy" ingredient, but enough to be... enough. And then it became a routine, and they started getting used to having you around, there, present, a regular daily component that their life consists of. And the big gray cloud came back, but this time you cannot make it go away. And essentially, it has nothing to do with you/me,

but I cannot help but sometimes wonder: why am I not enough this time? And fundamentally, I know that their depression has nothing to do with me, but when you're doing your very best to bring something healthy, productive, positive, happy into someone's life, and you see another person only sinking deeper into their dark place... you cannot help but wonder why none of those beautiful things make any difference anymore. Why isn't a single one of those things enough? What doesn't any of those things mean anything, anymore?

And at the end of the day, you do understand that your partner's depression has nothing to do with you. But once upon a time, you could help, and now, whatever you try (even if that involves giving them space etc)-- nothing works. You just exist helplessly, still, while the big black cloud is growing bigger, consuming the person and the entire relationship.

That can be scary. And it can seem like it cannot be changed. But, having been a listener here, I have come to realize that there are so many of us in either/both of the roles described in my somewhat long hypothetical. And we all have different experiences. Different things that work and do not. Different questions, dilemmas, struggles, insecurities. Yet, with so many different ways in which these situations are experienced, we relate to each other. That is why I decided to write all of the things I've shared in this post. Do feel free to reflect on it, or your own example, and share your thoughts.❤️

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GreatestClassiest June 10th, 2020

@Hanaa00

Some people are very complex and their complex ideology brings discrepant payoff. Complex mind more easy to grab depression. People should understand that life is facile and everything happening is a part of life. People should try to apply the care love and time that they get from those who care for them as a medicine for the depression. Good efforts never go in vain, so the time you spend for others favor will bring numerous opulence for you. So the time you spend for others favor will bring numerous opulence for you. Love will hit every kind heart.

Pmchr01 July 4th, 2020

@Hanaa00 I think everyone is different regardless of the fact they have depression or not. I have been in different relationships while having depression, and my biggest fear has always been to let the other person feel for a minute that there's anyting wrong with them if I'm in a dark/bad mood, because it most likely has nothing to do with them, but with me and my own issues. If reckon that if you really care about someone, even when you deal with depression, you'll do anything to let them know you love them in spite of your own problems.

Now I know it's difficult for both to mainting a somewhat stable relationship when one has depression and the other one doesn't. If anything, I feel it's not fair for the people who have loved me to have to put up with my depression cause my only wish is to see them happy but I can't control that part of me. I know that when someone really loves you, they care (but also that's why I wouldn't want to drag them down with me of course). I can imagine how much it must suck seeing the person you love drowning in their own shit, and being unable to do anything about it.

I'm sure you are more than enough for your partners and it sucks the whole situation makes you think and ask yourself if you aren't, but I'm sure that if the person with depression loves you, he/she doesn't mean for you to feel that way. Nevertheless, I do think you should always be where and with whoever makes you feel whole. You can't pay such high price for loving someone with depression. I have loved my partners enough to know that.