Been a while :)

Hey, Its been a while since I've been on here, frankly haven't felt the need to. A lot has happened in such a short time given that I was last on here in November. Went through a pretty bad break-up, meet an amazing person who I've gotten pretty close to. On the whole, I'm doing pretty good which I think is pretty good! This amazing person who I've met helped me to stop drinking alcohol anytime I got depressed (which was a lot) and I'm very grateful for life at the minute. Yet somehow, given all that, tonight specifically, I'm not doing good. I just don't feel worthy of anything in life anymore, especially this amazing person. I found myself tonight asking what is the point in everything and I just can't find an answer sadly, I've just lost all motivation in anything and everything I do and now I'm kinda lost. I cried for the first time in a couple of months and I just don't know whats triggered it. I wanted to talk to some of my friends right now, or just talk to anyone really but given that is 2.27 am no one is awake and I feel really alone right now.

I now feel better slightly for writing this knowing that I've just let it out. So if you're reading this then I thank you I don't feel so alone with the thought that someone might read this. I don't know if that's weird but hey ho. I kinda just wanna have a conversation with people; not talking about anything really, just to connect to people because right now with quite a few amazing people in my life I feel unbelievably alone :(