Am I really even living

Hello, I can relate to you. I'm reaching out because I know what it feels like to be uncomfortable with everything. And yes, depression is hard to conquer, but it's not impossible. It seemed impossible though, I know. Although it might seem to be at a wrong time to give this advice due to the global situation, but if you have a budget to have a vacation somewhere far away and "restart" a new life for a moment, do give it a try. Talk to a stranger, or simply just breathe and try to enjoy the moment.

One thing that I learned about depression is that you have to keep moving. Don't sit too long or stay in 1 place too long. Even if it's just to get a glass of water, or constantly checking an empty fridge. Move your body.

I'm new here as well, but who knows that you might find a friend here. You're not alone.

I hope this advice helped you :)

You see the thing is I’m actually on vacation in Hawaii right now. I hate it, what was the point of me even coming here if I still can’t be happy. There is no point of me going somewhere where people go to enjoy themselves if I’m just not capable anymore.