Am I really even living
I’ve been depressed for as long as I can remember really. I have chronic depression and have no friends. No one to talk to and such or be around. My days just kind of float by, I’ve been in mental hospital after mental hospital but I gave up awhile ago now. I don’t even know what to do anymore. I’m too numb to even express emotions or experience certain feelings anymore. How do I deal with this?
Hello, I can relate to you. I'm reaching out because I know what it feels like to be uncomfortable with everything. And yes, depression is hard to conquer, but it's not impossible. It seemed impossible though, I know. Although it might seem to be at a wrong time to give this advice due to the global situation, but if you have a budget to have a vacation somewhere far away and "restart" a new life for a moment, do give it a try. Talk to a stranger, or simply just breathe and try to enjoy the moment.
One thing that I learned about depression is that you have to keep moving. Don't sit too long or stay in 1 place too long. Even if it's just to get a glass of water, or constantly checking an empty fridge. Move your body.
I'm new here as well, but who knows that you might find a friend here. You're not alone.
I hope this advice helped you :)
You see the thing is I’m actually on vacation in Hawaii right now. I hate it, what was the point of me even coming here if I still can’t be happy. There is no point of me going somewhere where people go to enjoy themselves if I’m just not capable anymore.