What does depression tell you?
Tells/Worst Feeling: Feeling guilty/ashamed/shamed. It tells me I don't deserve what I think I "need". That I don't "need" it if I'm surviving perfectly fine right now. It tells me that its a waste of money and you should save instead of spend money. It tells me that you can never have your "wants". That you should live a life of suffering, give up stuff/needless stuff that just takes up space. To live as minimal and need very little things as possible. To live how the other world is and not ever be happy. To be miserable. To hate yourself... That food is needless. You never need to eat. Your fat. Basically to just suffer without anything. Like 0 things. Like not even a morcel of food or love or stuff.
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Clue: If my dogs/cats are suffering from miss of my care - abuse. Because when I can't make myself happy, en how am I supposed to make a being that depends on me that is always happy, happy? (Again going back to my worst feeling.)
R: Is anyone like me? What are your thoughts fixated about/on? What's the worst feeling you suffer through? What's a clue that hints to you being depressed again?
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Lets fixate this thread on letting it all out into the world. Breath. Get those nasty thoughts out. Maybe I'll start another thread after this where we can ALL work on changing our thoughts. Cause I think the worst part of that is the enormity, how repeative it is, and boring.
@Evois My depression tells me that I'm worthless and that I don't even derserve to be happy because of how pathetic I am, it makes me feel pathetic because I feel like I overwhelm myself with my problems when others problems are so much more difficult to face than my own but its a constant battle between what I tell myself and what my depression tells me and I can't tell which one I believe.
@Evois my depression tells me everyday that I deserved what has happened to me.
Sometimes it tells me there is no way I can prove myself I'm smart. That everyone can be successful but me even in small things. That I deserve my lack of ambition for making wrong decisions. For not choosing just one carrefour and stick to it. It tells me what's the point to try it when I know that no matter how much I tried I won't make it. It tells me my family would be better if I wasn't living at home with them but instead so many miles away. It questions me as a girlfriend and friend and shuts me down . I'm relieve depression hasn't spoken to me since 2 days ago. Trying to keep it quiet doing small things that make me feel better with myself.