One word to describe how I feel today is....

I'm feeling happy

Rudderless

Stupid

Unworthy

Disappointing

Betrayed

Lost

hurt

Hopeless

Honestly feel as if there is nothing to look forward to anymore.

Can't see friends and probably will never get to ever again. Can't go to the amusement parks as they are still closed and even if they weren't I probably will never get to ever again. Can't go anywhere or do anything, not even have a meal at any of my favorite restaurants without a bunch of extra restrictions. I hate feeling as if this pandemic has stolen my life away but it sure has figuratively. The way things are going, will probably be locked in my house for the rest of my life and will never get to go anywhere, travel, or see my friends ever again :(

I wish I was optimistic and could see a light at the end of the tunnel but it is very hard to :(

there is no light