Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?
I feel down and all over the place with anxiety, it's like I'm trying to make sense of everything that happens good and bad in life overall, tired of me always being judged, always in the wrong, and being the black sheep overall.
I feel like I want to move on but the ghost of my past keeps dragging me down..
I'm starting to get used to someone telling me to kill myself, so there's that
I hate myself today. Dressed up as myself because I feel like such a monster.
One of my closest friends is finally communicating more of his feelings to me, and apparently I've been hurting him very deeply almost our entire friendship. I don't know what to do other than change my behaviour and own up to the pain I've caused... but it doesn't lessen my guilt... which I probably just deserve to navigate anyway.
Idon't want to be the critical, judgemental person that I am. I don't want to make people I love feel worthless and embarrassed to be themselves. How do I continue to put work into myself when I feel like such trash?
@ZomBri
Start making amends. That's all anyone can do..Correct our mistakes and make people realize that we're only human!
@Trinkle
Thank you, I wish I could. I tried, but there were too many other factors. He has cut me out of his life.
I am struggling with that very much.
I feel ok today. I'm feeling a bit unwell physically as I'm currently weaning off a medication, but mood wise I'm ok. I'm always nervous that a bad day is right around the corner though. I think I need to have more faith in myself. After all, I've survived all my bad days so far!
@GingerCatGirl
I know the feeling of feeling normal but fearing the next moment things will turn bad from anxiety/depression. I like your positive attitude though and it helps me seeing someone else trying to do the same.
I feel like I'm never going to be okay, I feel like I'm completely wasting my life and that everyone would be better off without me.
The kind of pain that runs so deep...you feel like youve been punched in the stomach...hard...and your life will never be the same again.
Tired and unmotivated
Really lonely right now
Id been feeling better for a few weeks but lately I dont even know anymore. Ive been isolating myself more in the past few days and at the same time avoiding going back home because I feel like my aunt is suffocating me. I decided not to go to school today. Ive also been cutting classes more often lately. I got onto 7 Cups today and Ive been talking to people and its helped me feel better. Im still making a conscious effort to get better.
