ranting (it's therapeutic) about my situation i'll post a proper follow-up

The parents think therapy, disorders, people who require help, are weak and deserve these problems.

They also believe these problems aren't real, that they are made-up things, just excuses for failures to hide behind and pretend it's not their fault, they think that this is just a craving for attention.

So you can guess that I didn't tell them I'm not in the best mental state. It also means that since I'm not a legal adult, I can't go to therapy; I can't even get checked to see what's actually *** wrong with me. So through like doctor-verified tests and assessments but online, apparently I have long list of stuff but mainly, I'm depressed.

Woooooo! Yeah what a surprise, darling, I never could have guessed!

So what do I do now?

Sit and do nothing?

I can't sleep, eat, drink, stay awake, focus, do chores, study, stand for more than 10 minutes without getting dizzy, so how am I expected to get better?!

I can't get help, I can't talk about it, I don't know how to deal with it.

well isn't this lovely.