“Will I see you again?”

I’ve been diagnosed with MDD for a few years now but according to my therapist I’ve had it pretty much my entire life. I remember being a young kid crying in the shower for reasons I can’t even explain why.

I'm in a weird phase in my life where I’ve tried so many things and realizing my quick fixes aren’t working anymore and not helping. I feel like I’m running out of time even though I’m in my mid-20s. Like there’s been things I have of course been ignoring. Idk. I guess the need to always feel like I’m loved is a big one. But I *** that chance up not too long ago by self sabotaging. Not sure where to go from here but reminisce and listen to oldies. Thinking about what could’ve been.