When depression hits hard

Soooo I wrote a poem....

#Hope

#IAmEnough

#Depression

Love

I don't know what it is

I've never received much of itI

've never felt anything too deep to be called love

Is it the happiness that arises within when I'm alone

Or is it the acceptance I feel when I know I have myself

Is it the tears that fall down when depression hits hard

Or is it the melancholy I feel at the most random moments

But I know for sure

When there are times when I feel too deep and too much 

Just wishing for a person to hold me

I know that I won't have anyone 

I know I won't trust anyone ever again

To see my most vulnerable state

I'll get through this by myself

As I've done a thousand times before

I'll get through this

Even if means I'll be broken beyond 

But it'll be me who broke me 

Not anyone else

I won't be broken because I foolishly let someone in again

I won't be broken because I didn't learn the lesson

Trust me I've learned it

Not once or twice but a good number of times 

I'll get through this myself 

I'll be alright 

I'll love myself 

Even if it's not right now

I'll be alright

I'll love myself

Oneday