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I just feel like I have no control over my life, I'm addicted to porn the internet. It ruined my relationships I'm lonely, and I see myself going down a path in which I want to well you know. I don't want what I need and what I need hates me. I don't know if I have depression or not, everyday I am fine, I'm happy but then I get yelled at and just ruin my own self. I cant get out.
@indigoHouse922 đ your situation, is very sad to hear about. Your so young, with so much stuff going on. Gives you a giant tiny hug †your not alone anymore you have us â€â€ you can beat this, I know you can â€
@Tinywhisper11 A guy who I thought was my best friend, sent this, what if people don't really like the guy I am and just use me for a few jokes. Is that all what people see in me. Like is that it, porn addict, dumb, fed up with his life, is that how it's supposed to go. Everyone else has a good relationship with their parents, man I've been through so much because of them, we love each other but in our own way. I can barely talk to them. Is it just supposed to be me on my own. Am I meant to just be that fat kid, whose weak Infront of everyone. I need to get my stuff figured out, I can't last one day without porn, and the amount of shorts I've consumed made my brain fried.
@indigoHouse922 did u succed and gave up on porn ? Because my bf is addicted to and i can't accept that i feel like i'm being cheated on everydayÂ
@indigoHouse922 I was raped when I was 4 but got saved by Jesus when I was 5. I am depressed and I can't handle pressure and survived with videogames. It took all the pressure from school and work. I looked at porn as well. Other things happened as well but I made it to my 30s alive. Somehow I made through every year looking forward to a youth conference with music and dancing and I'd volunteer there at my church. It was my reason for living. Also I looked forward to camp. I couldn't remember people's names or faces very well and always wanted desperately to hang out at someone's house. The couple times I did was the best memory of my life. I was suicidal and my relationship with my parents was poor. I still don't feel good and am on meds for schizo and hear voices. I self-harm regularly because of emotional pain or boredom. I want to change and thinking of life as a videogames really helps me. I know that no matter how bad it gets I can always rely on God to get me through. You can get out of this! You're never too far gone that u can't get out of it! You're not your problem. Look at things u love and mix them with the things u hate doing that would be healthier. Think of your favorite things in your head, go over memories that really made you feel good in a healthy way. If a urgent need comes up like your lip gets chapped or something give it some care. Everything may feel like an emergency right now but just take life one step, one day at time. Don't worry about tomorrow I have a band I like that really helped me. They're called tenth avenue north. Healing begins is my favorite song. Also worn, greater than all my regrets, control, and beloved. Plumb is a great band too. I can't do this, and then a later song I can do this as well as beautifully broken are my favorite songs. Sarah Reeves has a good song called anxious. And get your fight back. Nicole nordeman has a beautiful voice. Take it all back with Lauren wells is an awesome song
Tauren wells
You can escape! Like the fellowship of the ring from the mines of moria