Things are alright but I don’t think my mind is

I understand how difficult it is to not know what's coming next. unpredictability is never fun. don't get yourself too worked up on the fact that the feeling came back. it's ok! that's just, unfortunately, how depression works.i'm sorry to hear that you feel the way you do. it's never fun to feel down. but i always try to think about sadness in a positive way, and i don't know if this will help you but i'll put it out there anyway. i'm always grateful and thankful for my sadness because it reminds me that i'm alive, and i'm human, and i'm real. i'm lucky to feel sadness because i'm lucky to get to experience life and experience emotions. not all the emotions are fun ones, but the experience and idea of just having feelings and emotions is extraordinary!! and this sadness only feels so sad because there have been moments in your life that have felt so happy and felt so good that you notice a contrast. and while being sad isn't fun and it doesn't feel great, it's always nice to remember that there have been times where you've felt like you're on top of the world, and you've felt amazing. and those feelings are sure to return in the future! always look forward to the good patches, no matter how long they last. that always helps me through my tough times. positivity is like a light in the dark, you know? sorry if that didn't help you at all, it usually helps me. if you ever need someone to listen to your overthinking i'm here if you just want to talk! i can just listen, or i can help rationalize, or we can just have a normal conversation too. whatever you want and whatever would make you feel better in the moment.